Well I sit here and I am caught in a bit of an odd spot for me anyway. Yea it is 1:00 am and I am not in bed and sleeping. It is just one of those nights where there are too many things for my brain to think about. I tried to go to sleep at like 11:00 and since then it has done me no good to be in bed. So I was thinking about a lot of things and thought that I might share this with others that might have the same problem once in a while. I will say that it does not happen to me very often. So I am not really sure what to do when it does happen. But some of the things that kept flashing in my mind were pictures. Pictures of all the sunsets and sunrises that I have seen in my brief existence of 27 years here on the planet. I though tonight about it in a different way then I have ever before. As the sunsets I am sure that there are people out there that just cringe as it drops below the horizon and others that look forward to it doing the same thing. As I sit here in the middle of the night I am not sure how I feel about it. I really love when the sun goes down but also look forward to its return in the morning. But as not being able to sleep I can see how people with this problem a lot would easily long for it to come up and dread it's dropping at the end of the day. For some reason it fells more like you are alone once the sun goes down? The sunny disposition of life slowly fades away with the light and the realization of aloneness settles in. I guess that this is part of the reason for being awake right now. Sunrise and sunset are both so beautiful but can be so different that it leaves a person to decide on their own, which one to look forward too.
