Love what is it really???

Ok as time goes by I really wonder what love is? I am having a hard time coming to grips with what we call love. So what is it that we all define it as? Well time tells me that love is a lot of things and many of them ar not good even though most of you would would try to argue the opposite side. Can Love suck????? I mean love is always locked at as a good thing and something that we don't have control over. But what is the later was true but the first part of that statement is not true? What if we give love but never receive it back? What then? Why is it that movies mostly portray love as that. That it is worth giving so you give it and the other person excepts it and then life goes on. Are there any movies out there that do not show love in this way. What would it look like if it was not shown this way? What if the movie started out and love was put out there for someone and they just walked on by or else they never recognized it as love being passed to them? I know that would make for a crap movie.... that is why it is not done. Ah well the things you think of.

So anyway the love thing really does effect me and I am not sure why. Life seems to go on enen with out the love thing and hearts get broken and we must pick up the pieces and move on with life. Something that we all have faced and have gotten over. Oh the one that got away or the one we had to let go. Life is like that if it where not where would we be still with our school crush I guess. Would that be a bad thing???? I guess the problem for me is that I have picked uo the pieces and have moved on with life but as the pieces have fit back into place and have been formed back into what resembles a heart again it starts to beat the same beat as it did before it was broken. What do you do with a heart like that. Does it long for more hurt and pain? Does it just need to be dropped again so that it will never go back together again? These are some things that I wonder about? These are things that I continue through. We were made to love and I believe that but what if that love were abused? We don't give love to ourselves because we already love ourselves. So what is it about giving love that can cause us so much pain. Life will go on but will the heart ever heal? What is healing of a broken heart? Is it the point where you finally don't care about the one that broke it in the first place or does it heal with a stronger love even though it has been fatally injured in the past? Can a broken heart be given to the one that broke it to be fixed? I guess that I will never really know the answer to that. All that I do know is that my heart belongs not in my hands but in the hands of those who break it because they are worth loving no matter how much it breaks for them. So I will continue to pray for the strength to live day after day with others holding the pieces of my heart.